I don't want to be sick

Ég vil ekki vera veik

I don't want to be sick

Ég vil ekki verða veikari

I don't want to be more sick than I'm now 

I often feel like this is all my fault. If I would live a healthier life I would be better. 

I don't want to be sick

Sadly I feel like I can't stay away from sugar. Why can't I live a life without sugar? I feel like I'm always trying to eat healthy food and exercise but never succeeding. I feel like it should be so easy for me to stay away from sugar and live a VERY healthy life. I feel it because of I have arthritis. If I would every single day make smart decisions regarding food and my health there is a good chance that I can get better. Then why doesn't I do it?

What's wrong with me?

Why can't I do it?     

When I started this blog about one month ago I honestly thought "this is it, from now on I will live so healthy live, make smart decisions about my health and then blog about the journey"  Sounds easy!  

I feel like a such a looser. Last month I was taking fertility drugs (perotime/clomid). That didn't go well and for four weeks I had a very bad pain in my right side. So bad that we went to the E.R. It wasn't very pleasant and I used it as a excuse to stop eating healthy food. When the pain started to get better, I figured out a new excuse to continue to eat unhealthy food. Obviously I can't eat healthy food when I'm packing down my stuff, right?

Now

I want to start planing again how to eat right and exercise but my plans never seems to work out. Why don't they work out? Well, mainly because I give up. I know that I have to start again  

but I'm afraid that  I will fail again.